cEciLia*

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

today's my first day of work....

guess why am i still awake at this time...cos i am still sending emails out at this time! aahah
long working hrs....and working environment and intense pressure plus a v low pay for the work tt i am doin.....honestly!

Hmm, shall not say abt the details to why i am doin this job...but i can only say tt if i haf a choice i wld do smth else instead...but as usual, i dun....
guess why???

haha, cannot be too obvious with the reason...but i can only say it's complicated...i really do not haf much choice.... I was sorta threaten...a psychological threat!
Well, it wld be no surrise tt many of u will not understand the reason... dun worry, u r normal... cos u r not cecilia xiao ya? hahah, but the reason is quite heartwrenching i must admit....at least to me... cos well, i am afterall someone who thinks more than others....

honestly, i am not at all happy tat exams haf ended.
Cos i haf to work, and it is not a job which i am happy wif...i dun wanna do this job, honestly!
I want to work in a hotel. I wanna do PR stuff, i wanna do service line.
But now i haf got to do everything under the sun!

Quit lor!!!
I can't! Cos it matters everything....it concerns my entire family wellbeing, not tt they rely on me but i wld be playing the role of a mediator.... cos...it's just a long story which has got to do wif what i noe, and wat my mum doesnt noe and i dun intend to tell her the truth. But, watever it is, i hope i will get adjusted quickly and get on wif life this way!

1:18 AM
alone* in the rain;