cEciLia*

Friday, September 30, 2005

I cried...for the first time in many many mths...too much stuff, too upsetting plus tt movie by andy lau...wah one time shot, good job!

Actually abt crying...i haf got a really long history. I used to cry alot in primary sch...in class, tt's when my pri sch classmates bully me. I will nv forget wee seng and kenneth, wah they bully me every other day, take turns one somemore...hahah, but those were the days when i can cry and cry non stop :)

BUt now, i have settled down emotionally. Perhaps it's becos i haf found peace within myself, or maybe i haf grown to take things as it is, or even becos i noe crying doesnt solve problems... My advice to ppl is tt if u feel like crying, go ahead, but aft u cry, u must not plunge into depression mode, or u will not be able to save urself.

If u need help to get urself out of depression, u can always come and look for me instead of dwelling in ur own miseries, cos i think wif someone ard to listen out is actually better than having none;) I can help save lives too!

11:15 PM
alone* in the rain;

Monday, September 26, 2005

I want my HALU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my goodness, this is the kind of guy i am looking for! someone who i can take care of and someone who relies v much on me...ahaha, like a mummy to her lil boy;) And my boy can be really man at times...on the outside..haah, must noe how to act strong and brave in front..then will purr and whine in the private, tt's wat i am searching for!!! man, u gotta watch PRide, it's so so so so so good...and takuya, tho i nv really like him, i think he is cool and shuai! i wish i can become aki someday, find a gd man and be nice all the time...tho she is really quite old fashion at times...but i admire her even tho i am a gal myself...cos i think she is great...wah... i cant imagine mah...watchin aki hug halu while he sobs like a lil boy, this is so sweet...ahhaah...i think i am crazy, but so far, i am not at all looking for anyone..cos i think i haf someone in mind alr...tt is halu..hahah, if only masha was halu..but then, masha wld not look convincing...cos he is probably better at aki's role...haha i think i am mad!

I am so so so hooked onto korean dramas...this is shit..i cant stay away from watching tv every now and then and its v v bad...cannot continue liddat, i will get tv poisoning...need rehabilation, any one noes how?

9:20 PM
alone* in the rain;

Friday, September 16, 2005

Guess wat my bro told my mum...he said, "dun worry, u can retire after i finish my NS"

Oh my gosh!!! Tt's so touching!!! How i wish my son next time wld say such things to me... Mummy dun worry i will support u aft i finish NS... oh goodness! I wld love my son so so so so much!!! He's going to buy a house...soon...11 months later... $2000 per mth...hmm, shd be affordable for him la...hee then he say tt i can finish paying the hse by 32 yrs old...hahah...he will be the youngest guy to own his own house...oh man!!! gals...anyone interested?? haha, if he isnt my bro i wld want someone like dat too..haha...oh well, but i doubt he really is a very nice guy...as a guy at least..haha...

8:30 PM
alone* in the rain;

I just learnt a very important message! That is....wearing more condoms increases the risk of getting AIDS!!!!!!

Believe me....really...now i am gg to explain it to u why....

This is because condom itself is supposed to be worn tightly over the erected penis. And if u wear more than 1 condom...which is 2 or more...they are likely to rupture and the chances of getting infected is higher! It will also cause injury to ur precious "Princess Sophia", it hurts! ouch!!!! This means tt the more u wear does not mean the safer u are but the more exposed u will be! So my advice is dun wear too many condoms...just like any other things, to be in moderation is enuff...excessiveness will only cause misery!

2:21 PM
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Monday, September 05, 2005

do u watch KOREAN dramas?
I used to hate it k? haha, but i am hooked onto 2 of them! ahah, eh, it's the one at 6pm and 10 pm on channel U...best! i like it!
the one at 6pm is funny...esp Qiyuan and Li Yuhua...i think they are really huan xi yuan jia! I think this is more fun lor...and i like meizhen wif minshi ge...unlike tt huiyuan who is trying to steal minshi fr meizhen...haiz...tsk tsk...but i haf a feeling tt my personality is more like huiyuan leh....i also liddat kind of mindset...but as usual, i dun do wat i tink :)

enuff of korean dramas la...i think i will go mad at this rate...my next show wld be PRIDE!!! woohoo, takuya kimura!!!! but i like my everdearest fukuyama masaharu most! i just bought his new single...it;s called tokyo! it;s gd and comes wif a dvd of his mtv! wah;) i love masha!!!!!

11:04 PM
alone* in the rain;

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Hmmm, went to clarice's blog just now and noe tt she is so deeply in love wif yy...hahha, gd gd, lovebirds must last wor! dun let others kan bian. But as far as i noe usually ppl dun kan hao de relationships last very long de! so dun worry, i always ask my gd fren when they breaking up but they are still tgt, since 3 yrs ago...so dun worry, it's a blessing in disguise! :)

Well, back to wat's been on my mind for the past 24 hrs...it's a reprimand from a fren...i hope he is one...or at least i regard him as one la...hmm, thanks for telling me tt words do hurt, esp when they come out fr my mouth...and to rectify the mistake, i did apologise to her and hope she seriously felt alrite alr...cos i nv knew tt my jokes can get overboard at times too... gomenasai ne!

Receiving praises is a great feeling...esp fr ppl whom u used to think hates u...hee, ok la, maybe it's cos i am too sensitive...but somehow i think alot of ppl misunderstand the kind of personality i haf, but so be it, cos i do not haf to pretend, i am myself! Well, yy said tt i am mature in my thinking...and wat i said enlightened him...hohoho...is tt considered a praise?! i took it as one cos...yy always suan me but eversince he's wif clarice he changed for the better...thanks clarice! eh, wat did i say tt make him think tt i am an 18 yr old? Well, i merely told him my perception of life....

let me ask u, if u were to die tonite, wld u be v frightened? well, for me i wldnt be, but i wld be really busy for the next 10 hrs..cos i wld call all my frens and relatives to say my last words... in fact i wld feel happy too, cos i think it's the time tt i smile and die, while they wld all cry for me, i think it's a honour to haf frens and families to weep for u, cos it means tt u r impt to them. Tt's why back to yc, if u had cried for a fren, it means tt u cry for her. Sometimes i wonder, how many of my frens wld cry for me when i die...these are the ppl who truly loves who i am, the cecilia tt wld always live in their mind forever! ahahha

1:45 PM
alone* in the rain;