cEciLia*

Sunday, August 07, 2005

just went for Mrs mao's farewell party last wk, hmm, Alien mao is retiring, i think she is cute... as in the way, hmm, adorable cos can u imagine she is so creative tt she calls herself alien mao when describing the geograpy terms...she is so so cute! like her mane too, very curly and thick! how i wish i haf half of her volume...hoho

wat i like most abt the party is tt it reminds me alot abt the past, the past 4 yrs of red cross...and to me, it's a v memorable time, somehow i believe, to many including myself...tt when u r experiencing hardships, u will tend to dread it, but when u look back, u will find tt those times were really memorable! To me, RC was the bulk of my sec sch life, forming at least 80% of my memories;)

when i was in Sec1, i was a crybaby...really, i cried almost every session, hahah, i am like a water tap, the deepest impression was seow yee ma'am, lishan ma'am, huimin ma'am and hwee yi ma'am. They haf formed my group of idols...wonder if u haf ever admired ur seniors, to me i did, tt's cos they are pretty, intelligent and haf great character! to me, they are great ppl! i love them most! In sec2, course formed my core, becos of HNS, i think i missed out alot on studies, alot on my class...but i think it;s all worth it! cos it's becos of HNS tt built my character today, to me, missing out on smth isnt the end of the world...eventho i was really depressed abt the failure to achieve wat i wanted, i held on to the belief till today tt it's not tt i am not gd, but it's bcos there are others out there who r better :) if u understand tt, u will soon realise tt even if u fail to achieve smth, it's mite not be due to ur imperfection, but due to others' excellence.

So to all my frens, believe and haf faith in wat u haf, it really doesnt matter if u r the leader or the follower, cos at the end of the day, it's wat u believe in tt holds true in ur life, Dream it Live it!

In sec3...it's my yr of play and accelerated growth, i think i am the prettiest in sec3...hhaha..tt's my prime k!felt really proud of myself, cos my phot was on the ndp mag...wohahah, so was my msg, i wonder if i still kept those mags, shd haf rite? so 50 yrs down the road i can show my grandchildren how wonderful and beautiful their grandmama was!!!!
Sec4 was the yr of friendship, my friendship wif sinnee nv dimished, and at the same time, i gained alot of other friendships from mich, ryl, lisa, pris and many more...those were the times when i spent talking to mich on bus psychoing her abt my suggestions, bitching wif lisa non-stop abt the sec2s...ahahha....i was a B****!!! ahha, so proud to be one too :)

But in fact, the best of all isnt just all these, it's actually all the experiences, all tt i haf learnt over the yrs, all the rights and wrongs, i believe, i haf also held on this belief--- Cecilia, if u Dream it, Live it! To my frens, when u r down, dun despair, it's ok to tear, it's alrite to feel depress, but u must always rmb to get up aft ur fall, cos u r the only one who holds on to ur Belief, treasure it!

11:47 PM
alone* in the rain;